Something is going on

I can't explain what is going on right now. God is moving in such a beautiful way. Eight weeks ago I started out in a growth group expecting to get a healthier outlook on food and to lose a little weight, but I got so much more. I got so much love, encouragement and friendship that I don't even know what to do with. We read the book Made to Crave and I would suggest it to anyone how has issues with food or other emotional or physical issues because it makes you confront what is really at the heart of your eating habits or whatever it is for you.

For instance, I've had some very unpleasant things happen to me in this life especially in my childhood. I've hid things about myself from people and even myself. I've told lies to keep people at arm's length because they couldn't possibly understand or would just feel sorry for me. I've done a good job of keeping people away so far, but at some point in your life no matter how well things are going on the outside, if things on the inside aren't going well they manifest in others places...in this case it's my fat rolls. I didn't want to deal with my issues head on with God. I wanted to deal with them my way by eating stuff that makes me feel better for a short time like cake and brownies...obviously my way wasn't working.

I started to "get real" with myself. I started to write down the things the cause me to reach for sweets and overeat. After that I found scriptures that spoke truth to my situation and the things that cause me to eat. I started praying and I even began to vocalize my pain and past hurts to people who I trust.

Wouldn't you know that while I was being honest with myself that God sent some who had similar life events to share her story? It showed me that I am certainly not alone and that through God all things are possible even healing. To anyone reading this today, I want to tell you that we aren't ever alone. God is there during the hurts and the joys. He is with you no matter what! Amen!