No words for this feeling

 Some random thoughts:

So thankful for growth groups:

Had our first growth group meeting for Weird: Because Normal Isn't Working on Monday. I absolutely love our group. Our group is diverse in age so I can't wait to hear the different points of view on each of the topics. Overall, I am very excited that everyone wants to be "weird" meaning set apart from the crowd when it comes to Christianity. I think that there are areas of my life that need a reevaluation or even a complete overhaul when it comes to being more like Jesus.

Gave something up more to come:
I made a pretty difficult decision to cut an activity for the summer. After praying, reading and talking with others I think there may be more things that need to be cut so that I can prioritize my time in a way that glorifies God and creates space for loved ones. In all honesty, there are several reasons that I feel overwhelmed. Yeah, I'm gonna stop there because everyone has those things that make them feel stressed out. It's nothing new. I will have use most of my time this summer and really however long it takes to lead a healthier lifestyle.

Uhh, well...here is goes..I am 30 years old and on three different blood pressure medicines. Man, that was hard to write.. I am on blood pressure medicine because I am obese and do not handle stress well at all. I am type A to the extreme. I used to get bloody noses when I got angry.  I have changed alot since then, but not enough. I want to be around  and health for my family and friends. If I do not make better choices now I am sure to have other health issues. This time I think that I will be successful for a longer time because Craig is also trying to live a healthier lifestyle. Please pray for me. I know what I need to do. I know God will help me.