252

I ate pizza, birthday cake and a few cookies, but managed to lose three pounds from my 255 last week. Let me tell you that it was not easy to stop eating after I felt full. Each time I wanted food extra food I thought about my health and how I could drastically improve it by losing weight. I would finally look and feel like I was meant to.

I drank a lot of water and tried to cut fats and sweets. I added tons if fruits and veggies which I love anyway.

I was sabotaged! Unknowingly of course. There were many opportunities for sweet treats especially around Valentine's day. I walked into my in laws house and saw cookies on the table and almost ate a handful until I got a hold of myself. What scared me the most is I didn't even think about it...that is how bad my habits are.

I found that I used food as my coping mechanism. I was on my period last week and had migraines and all I wanted to do was eat myself into a coma and sleep until it was all over. I get bad news at work or a rough day at home and I reach for a candy bar and a grape soda. When I should be reaching for people who love and support me. I really try to put on brave front, but each day for the past few months has been difficult in many areas of my life. I thought for sure when I hit my 30's I would have my shit together. Ha!