I don't like to complain on my blog, but if I am being honest with myself not everyday will be the best day of my life. I am struggling this week. I take care of business at work...seriously I make sure that things are perfect. I get to work early, start my work early and get everything done for that day, plus plan and start on the next days load of work. Right now I am still working on the last summer project that was supposed to be done oh three weeks ago... There were numerous setbacks, a breakdown in communication and not enough materials at my disposal etc.. I had several back up plans for each part of the project and all of those fell through. I am going crazy right now. Monday I was spoken to by another one of my bosses about something that wasn't related to the project, but left me floored/mad/livid/upset/angry. Today that same boss apologized to me for overstepping their bounds. It may not seem like a big deal t, but not achieving or doing things well really bothers me. I feel like a failure and like people can't depend on me. I have cried everyday this week and I have never been like this before.
I have been praying and praying with my family for the strength to not be negative about this situation and use it as a learning opportunity. I don't want these last few weeks of disappointment to determine my future. If you are the praying sort, please pray that this week will turn around and I learn to lean more on God than my own understanding.
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