Time to Grow Up

I just wanted you all to know that Craig and I are doing well. We have been married for four months and our life together has been better than I could have imagined. We really want to have children, but I am overweight and we are financially sound.

You are probably wondering what do you mean by healthy? Well, for starters I am 60 lbs overweight. Having a child will put so much stress on the body that it could cause numerous problems for me and the baby. I have attempted weight loss before with some results usually 10-15 lbs. Now I really have motivation because I want to have children as soon as I am able. I think that I eat pretty healthy, but I do have a weak spot and that's sweets. Sweets are keeping me from losing weight. For instance, just last night I made cookies for Craig and I because I had a craving. I think that if I eat more fruits and cut out a majority of the sweets I am currently eating then I will be able to lose this weight. I am tired of making excuses of way I gained weight. I am tired of rummaging through my closet to find clothes that still fit and I am tired of buying new clothes. I don't think that weight loss will cure all of my problems, but it wouldn't hurt.

The other part of this is financial. Craig will be in school for the next for years. He works part time to 3/4 time while taking 16 hours. There is no way he could work full time and still get the grades he does. We are not waiting until he graduates from KU to have children. My mom had me in her mid thirties and Ty in her early 40's. She had some complications and quite frankly I don't want to wait. Life happens! We don't have any idea where we will be in the future. I don't want to sit around and wait for the "right" time for things to occur. Luckily I am working full-time with state benefits so that won't be an issue, but I do worry about things the baby will need. I know that my parents and Craig's parents will help us, but I don't want to lean on them for everything. They are retired or getting ready to retire and they need all of their own resources. Craig and I got our work cut out for us!

I want to be a better person quite simply. I want to be more patient, loving, and forgiving. I want to instill these traits in my future children like my family instilled in me. I can't be selfish and raise children it just wouldn't work.

Also, I want more fulfilling friendships. I have known some of you for 14 years to 3 years. There are probably some things that I don't know about you and that you don't know about me. I want you to be able to come to me if you have a problem and me to you. I guess if you could sum up how I feel then you could say that I am "stepping up my game". I had fun in high school, college and now it's time to put all I learned into practice. Yes, I will make mistakes, but I will avoid a lot of them. I have been praying about all of these things that have been on my heart for sometime now. I know that God has a plan for me.