Climbing

Damn. It has been over two months since my last post. I wish that I could say that I was busy doing exciting things, but lets be real. I have let years of depression and anxiety catch up with me to the point that I am on anti-anxiety and anti-depression meds. I have been on them for about three months and my life is better. I always that I had high blood pressure because I am 250 lbs. What I found out from my doctors visits is that it is my high anxiety that raises it. I don't have racing thoughts that keep me from sleeping. I am more patient with myself and others. The list goes on and on. Another part of my stress was my job. While I liked what I did it was definitely time to move on. I had been conflicted about applying for jobs for two years. I was so scared to change and put myself out there that I stayed where I was and did nothing which negatively impacted me in more ways than I ever thought possible. I was miserable and made my husband miserable. My kids picked on it too and they were a mess at times. Friday I was offered a new job and I am taking it! I can't wait to learn something new. I have two weeks left of my current job and plan to make the most of it and leave on a high note.

Next step for me is taking more time for myself and therapy. I want to learn other ways to cope with my feelings other than worry and eat. I want to get back into my hobbies like playing flute, dancing, and walking. 

These are a few pics from our trip to Colorado. It was a lot of fun and much needed!